It's here

It's late Monday night. Wednesday is my surgery. It seemed like so far away that I can't believe it's time. I'm done eating the old way. Tomorrow, the day before surgery, I have to eat a liquid diet in preparation. I'm nervous, excited, anxious, and most of all, ready for the surgery. It's time to get it over with and start losing weight. I'm posting some before pictures. Not very flattering in my black cami top, but I didn't want to try and hide in a big T-shirt. Hopefully wearing a smaller top will make my after pictures more impressive! Next time I write I'll be post-surgery and on the road to a lighter/healthier Sarah!

Ok, well, the surgery is set for April 2. Insurance has approved everything, I've had my psychological evaluation (I have an above average emotional attachment to food!) and I've scheduled my pre-op testing and 8 hour dietary class. Whew! I'm set to go. The surgery seems far away, yet 2 months is going to fly by. I hope I'm ready for the lifestyle changes that are about to happen. I'm going to miss some things - soda, ice cream, cookies, chips, etc, but I am so excited to start this weight loss journey. I saw a man on Dr. Phil yesterday who weighed 725 pounds! I know that could be me if I just kept on going the way I have been. No one thinks that they would ever let themselves get that big. But, I never thought I'd let myself get to 225 or 250 or 275 or (gulp!) 300, but here I am and I feel so good knowing that I'm going to start the trek down to a healthier weight. It is scary though and part of me (the doubting part of me) wonders if I'll ever get there. Is it possible for me to weigh less than 200 pounds? I haven't since middle school. I've been fat for so long that I'm comfortable in this body and I feel safe. It's kind of scary to leave what you know, even if you know it's for the better. Well, that's all of the thoughts I have for now. More later....